Tuesday, September 20, 2011

A New Chapter

Yesterday was the last day I would look out the window to see if Blake's car was in the driveway.  The last time  I would get up in the night and look upstairs to see if his bedroom door was almost shut, the bathroom light on and the door cracked a little.   Just the way he likes it.  You see, it was our last night of "normal" ...  Blake went off to college today...

Happy and sad.  We are excited for him.  Gary and I both relating to our own experiences at his age.  For the absolute blast he will have at Western Oregon University.  For the new chapter in his life.  This part is necessary.  It's the next step in Blake's process of growing up.  Growing into adulthood.

The sadness in my heart is mingled with excitement for him.  But as a mom I have to reflect...

Being pregnant... his bright blonde hair... a two year old who didn't want me out of his sight... long walks... bedtime stories... learning to drive...

When I looked out my window today I saw his black Subaru with the red mudflaps and wheels parked in the driveway.  Automatic thoughts of "don't drive too fast, come home at a decent hour."  The realization that he's not coming home tonight, or this week or next...

It sounds so sad and pitiful on my part and it kind of is... but doesn't every Mom go through this? 

So there you have it... raw from a Mother's heart missing the little boy who was, the teenager who gave us so much joy and worry...  hope for a bright future...

Blessings to you our little blonde haired, blue eyed boy!   You are in for the time of your life, embrace it!  We love you Blakey...
Blake
Mom and Blake
Blake and Dad
Blake and Chelsea (sister)
Mom and Dad

8 comments:

stefanie said...

oh, I can't imagine!!! but I will be you soon, my son just graduated and started his first year of college, but luckly...for me...he still lives at home and drives, its only 20mins away...I to think how fun it will be when he goes off, but the selfish mom side of me wants him to stay!!! good luck!!!!

Ticking and Toile said...

Laurie!!!
oh my goodness! I can't believe it....you are so going to need to help me when it's "my turn" :)

Your family is just darling!

xoxo,
Shellagh

My Shabby Roses said...

Oh Laurie...it is sad, I feel for you. But also what an exciting time this will be for your son.

My son isn't going to college, at least not yet, but getting a job and not being home as much it does pull at your heart strings. How fast time flies, doesn't it?
Big Hugs,
Debbie

Chelsea said...

I love you Mommy :) You can call me if you get sad! I'll bring Blake home to visit, too!

Maison Douce said...

Laurie, this brings tears to my eyes... I know I will be lost when my kids start leaving the nest!! Hugs to you!
Isabel

Anonymous said...

Oh Laurie...I thought about all of you on Sunday. I know how wrenching it is. Yet we know it's necessary and such a positive thing! Good luck and have fun Blakey !Our love to you all,
Laurie :)

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Hi Lauri,

Aaw that is so sweet of you. I hope your son gets to read this blog entry of yours so he'd know how lucky he is to have a mom like you.

I remember my mom when I was about to enter the tertiary level and had to say goodbye to her, she was like crying like a baby. But you know she got used to it. You, too, will get the hang of it.

YONKS said...

Just stumbled across your beautiful blog and found your post on Blake leaving home. Oh dear one, I can relate whole heartedly as I have just gone through the same thing, read how I took it -
http://yonksnews.blogspot.com/2011/09/megan-has-left-building-boat-in-this.html

I am your newest UK follower and look forward to visiting you often.
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